I remember the first time I came here, I was a mess, a broken one at that. I was lost and had no sense of direction in my life. For 5 years I lived in world of toxicity. It wore me down to almost nothing. As I walked the grounds of the grotto that day, it made me realize that in order to make positive changes in my life, I needed to get out of the circle I kept going round. As scared as I was of the aftermath and the future of the unknown, I did it anyway.
Months have past and today I sit here at the grotto, only this time, my mind is at ease and my heart is at peace. It’s absolutely beautiful today; like a warm October day with leaves all different shades of autumn, the birds chirping like springtime, and the squirrels running wild like children at a playground. The warmth of the sun reminds me of beach days as a little girl learning how to fish with my father and the tears of joy flowing down my face reminds me that I am alive and over the pain I never thought would end.
I was raised in a home full of love and I have lots of love to give. As hard as it was to accept that it was unwanted at one time, I now know that it was being saved for someone that deserved it and was fully capable of returning the same kind of love if not more. I released my heart and soul back into the universe; I figured since I have nothing to lose, at the right time, what’s meant for me will happen and since that day, nothing but goodness has come my way. Trust letting go, trust moving on, and mostly trust yourself.